Side Effects....
After finding out the reason as to how these blogging, orkutting etc begin, I've realised that I have got addicted. This really has started to have impact on me in a -ve sense professionally to some extent. I started visiting these sites very frequently, checking mails every next moment, etc. Every moment I was just passing time by surfing uselessly onto the net. Agreed that I had no work but somewhere, somehow I have lost something. What was it? Unable to figure it out whether it was confidence, attention, inspiration to work!!!! What?
After introspection I realised that I have lost each of these things. I realised this madly when I started working again. Did I say working again? Yes I have got work now, and that too in loads. The very first day was like I could not concentrate at all, totally lost and getting attracted to this blogging world. I just could not finish looking into even half of the file in one day. I literally had to just look into the file and just figure out the sole purpose of this file. I was totally detached from work in just about 1.5 months.
I have always believed that detachment is must in life as it helps us to attach to something else, teaches you to keep moving and not get stick to one specific thing. But this was turning out to be negative. This sudden thought of detachment for the first time made my heart palpate fast and I could not understand what I was going through? I was shocked!!
Later on when I went home that day I was thinking how to rejuvenate the (temporarily) lost confidence, focus, inspiration to work. The only way that I found was to remember the old days and use these fond memories to get back my mood. It has worked to some extent but not fully, yet.
And now I am least bothered about it. As we all know every coin has two sides, so did this. It gave me space to put my thoughts down in words, to improve on this aspect of life i.e. writing. Despite all this trouble it's true that my curiosity to write hte next blog will begin the moment I finish this one. So this temporary detachment again has given me something, attached me to something. This detachment has added to my belief of detachment a strong way to make oneself strong and focused.
After introspection I realised that I have lost each of these things. I realised this madly when I started working again. Did I say working again? Yes I have got work now, and that too in loads. The very first day was like I could not concentrate at all, totally lost and getting attracted to this blogging world. I just could not finish looking into even half of the file in one day. I literally had to just look into the file and just figure out the sole purpose of this file. I was totally detached from work in just about 1.5 months.
I have always believed that detachment is must in life as it helps us to attach to something else, teaches you to keep moving and not get stick to one specific thing. But this was turning out to be negative. This sudden thought of detachment for the first time made my heart palpate fast and I could not understand what I was going through? I was shocked!!
Later on when I went home that day I was thinking how to rejuvenate the (temporarily) lost confidence, focus, inspiration to work. The only way that I found was to remember the old days and use these fond memories to get back my mood. It has worked to some extent but not fully, yet.
And now I am least bothered about it. As we all know every coin has two sides, so did this. It gave me space to put my thoughts down in words, to improve on this aspect of life i.e. writing. Despite all this trouble it's true that my curiosity to write hte next blog will begin the moment I finish this one. So this temporary detachment again has given me something, attached me to something. This detachment has added to my belief of detachment a strong way to make oneself strong and focused.
posted by Libran | Tuesday, December 13, 2005
3 Comments:
I think I am also going through something like this. But realized it very late. Now struggling hard to go back to good old days :-)
yeah...orkutting and blogging are very addictive...we wont realize it untill we get loads of work...but its the worst addiction...i have faced and now totally rehabilitated myself from it :-)
Kosha,
u have rehabilitated? r u sure? do let me know how u did thatd;-)
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